It may seem like I know everything
like I have an answer to every question
like I am an expert in any topic
But in reality I know little
I give general answers to questions
I am not an expert in every topic, but at least I am decent at many topics
It may seem like I have tons of friends
like I can always talk to someone when I'm bored
like I always have someone by me when I'm lonely
But in reality I am lonely
I have no one to talk to when I'm bored
I have no one to turn to in my loneliness, but at least I have a family
It may seem like I have my whole life planned out
like I know exactly what I want to do
like I have a goal in my life
But in reality I have little plans for the future
I have no clue what I want to do
I have no long-term goals in life, but at least I have short-term goals
It may seem like I am a great Christian
like a so-called "radical"
like I have a verse for every situation
like I know every story in the Bible
But in reality I am not that good of a Christian
I do little to practice my faith outside of church
I don't have a verse for every situation and barely have any memorized
I don't know every story in the Bible nor have I read the entire thing, but at least I know where the books are
Does that mean I am not intelligent?
No, I am still very intelligent.
Does that mean I'll be lonely forever?
No, I'll find some friends.
Does that mean I will go into life without a plan?
No, I'll make a plan eventually.
Does that mean God loves me any less?
No, God still loves me just like everyone else and he will always care for me.
I just have to stop being fake, and start being real.
- Matthew McCaskill, 2017
